Day 6 or I don't know. 30 Days of Getting your Ass Kicked

I think I'm going to lay off the alcohol for the remainder of this challenge or at least reduce it and I think I'm going to get off of Facebook. Not only have these traumatic sad experiences shaken me up the last few days but its been especially challenging whenever I have to relay it back to someone else. No why would I relay it back to anyone else? Because that's the whole part of this motherfucking challenge that matters.

Tell your whole story.

I've had a year of being down on myself that came from a combination of things, but now I look at it and its really been more like a year of recovery. I realize something, that as I express myself more, the more I open I become the more I, in turn become receptive to others around me. I become less of a judgmental assclown. This happened the other night when I randomly called a friend, who I guess had a year just like mine and is now finally on to better things. It was one of the best times I'd ever had hanging out with her. And it was an occasion where I was taken back by how genuinely excited I was for someone else. It's a not a feeling I have normally because I'm insanely jealous of others success and that's one of the worst mindsets anyone can possibly have. Because not only does the feeling of being truly happy for someone make you not a piece of shit by very definition, but because its a great feeling. Other people's journeys should feel like inspiration not hindrances. 

So here's what I have to say. If you can do this with a friend that's great and if you can do it with an acquaintance that's even better. Take the time to be in awe of someone's journey even if its all about a really good cupcake they found. Take this in more often and fighting the good fight will start to come way more naturally.