Saturday, March 15, 2014

30 days getting your ass kicked Intro: And Return

On this day next year I'll be done.

I'm treating my first two talks as a primer for what's coming now where I really buckle down. I let a lot of this get away from me and its upsetting because the happiness exercise was really yielding results. I'm also going to post a reflection about some of my experiences with the super better app. That has been a small revelation. Point is I'm not giving up on my little journey. And I'm spearheading the real adventure with a challenge based around one of my top five TED talks. Brene' Brown's The Power Of Vulnerability. Should TED talks be italicized? Who gives a shit.The point is that I'm a messy crazy character full of shenanigans and that's a beautiful thing. Here's the talks.



1.       30 days getting your ass kicked.
The Talks:
Kathryn Schultz: On Being Wrong: The image that stuck with me from Kathryn’s talk was she conjured the image of Wile Coyote not falling down until he realizes he fucked up. Being wrong feels pretty awful and all we need to remind ourselves of that is to look at that paper from elementary school where our teacher marks it up with a red pen. Hell, maybe that happened recently. And our perceptions about the person who wrote this paper are always negative. The idea is that if we get something wrong there’s something wrong with us. That’s not case and it’s important to abandon this internal sense of rightness. We have assumptions about those who disagree with us. But what’s tragic is being wrong is the whole point of being human and most people miss out on that.


Brene Brown: The Power of Vulnerability  Brown had what she calls a breakdown when she realized that the people who let themselves be seen were in fact the people who were more likely to find love. The definition of courage really means to tell the story of who you are with your whole heart. In order for connection to happen we have to let ourselves be seen. The people who have a strong sense of love and belonging and the people with a strong sense believe they are worthy of love and belonging. Its all pretty shocking because basically what it means is that if you're one of those lunatics always going on about what an emotional idiot you are, her prescription is basically to embrace that because you'll actually be better off. Because if you're like me or like miss Brown, you're full of vulnerabilities and insecurities but try to fight them off with a stick and usually just make them worse. This talk presents a more optimistic way of dealing with all that.  

The Challenge: One of the only times I got into a disagreement with my therapist is where he told me he was not big on turning negatives into positives. And he’s right but it’s important because that’s not what this is. What it is about is being okay with being wrong or backwards or overshooting with all the love I might have to give. I love boxing, I could never do it but I can imagine stepping into the ring and instead of being hit being prepared to be wrong. There’s a saying at my job where if a guest has a question we don’t know the answer to we say ‘I don’t know but let’s find out together’ maybe its bigger than working in a theme park and maybe that’s a piece of advice I should heed even if I’m not dressed like a sideshow freak. 

The Activity: The challenge is to reflect on times that I’ve been wrong and rethink the consequences and realize most of them were no big. And think about times when I thought one thing would happen and something else did. And think about how a disagreement I might have had led to difference in perspective and the values of those perspectives.
Second, here’s the tricky part.
>Have the Courage to tell your whole story with your full heart.

>Have the compassion to love yourself love that you fucked up the numbers last night.

>Here's what you're missing. Just be authentic forget what you need to be here's the real challenge.

>Try not numb myself with any drugs or alcohol. I also will not perfect for the sake of not being vulnerable. 

> Love with your whole heart.

> Let yourself be seen. 

> Practice gratitude and joy and not in the great moments in the awful ones.

> And remember that I am enough 

Fucking crazy right?

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