Wednesday came easy. I had to miss work thanks to this goddawful car situation. So I get the day off. Another day to sit around and recover and be all nurturing to myself. No, I'm not talking about maturating. Most of my best writing happened today and as I mentioned in the past my writing process goes something like this.
1. Wake up in the middle of the night feeling like a failure
2. Sit down to write the next day.
3. Re read what I wrote
4. Cry
5. Keep writing
6. Cry
7. Realize there's one good bit, 30 pages later.
8. Cry
Roughly
And today actually had slightly less crying than usual. But these passed days I spent in the house somehow didn't result in me turning into a fat pile of cheese of the couch. The superbetter app has me feeling more a alive and more healthy. My mom's actually not crazy about it though, because part of me getting healthy is eating all her bananas and almonds and blueberries. I haven't had any crazy adventures in the last a few days. but that's okay because all I really need is a few days and a few small challenges to remind me that I'm alive and well. My meditations have gotten more focused as its become less an attempt to switch my brain off and more an attempt to just let my thoughts breath.
When I read The Artists Way, one of the most important components is maintaining that creation is the natural order of things and convincing yourself you are on the right track. To me this goes hand in hand wit my mission of synthetic happiness. Where things seem lame but I convince myself that its all right.
Memories: Tuesday
1) I found a lovely Tree in my backyard.
2) I took a nice long walk with Sparky
3)I rewatched a film that I really love in preparation for finishing my script I'm not going to mention the title because I'm doing a whole separate entry on the artistic process.
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