Shut up. So Valentines day has come and gone. And while I'm trying to mostly stay positive on this blog I have to say. When did the single people on Valentine's day become way more annoying on Facebook than the single people. Valentine's day as well as the car situation and admittedly, my own procrastination has slowed this blog. Bu I refuse to give up like I do with...well more things than I'd like to admit. The most quintessential part of this is the memories from the previous days. When I fall behind they get all jumbled. But synthetic happiness, has been a journey and I'm realize I'm only half way through. But what's great about it is you realize how effective it is when you look back on things. I've had fits of anger and bouts of depression throughout this period, I won't lie. I got especially insane when traffic was backed up on the way to work. I swear I would have zero friends if people saw me freakout the way I do when I'm in the car. Anyway, I want to say the happiness is becoming instinctual, but I don't know if I'm quite there yet. I recover from shitty news faster, I generally get along with people more, and I'm becoming way better at making the best of a bad situation.
The thing I'm trying to combat most, is waking up in the middle of the night and feeling like a loser. This happens all the time. I have this weird thing about being 25, like I should be really successful and have tons of money at this point. I think its a film person thing because Orson Welles was 25 when he made Citizen Kane but also Orson Welles's dad was really rich. Point is, what usually happens. And what I mentioned in mt very first blog post, is that I back track and I think "I said this was gonna be my year and haven't done shit". But for the very first time I looked back over the past month and February has been a dramatic improvement. I've talked to old friends, made some new ones, work has been a breeze, I'm in the process of putting NY plans in motion. Lots of shit has happened. Good shit.
Thursday:
1) I tried on a pair of pants at work, by accident that were 14 sizes too big. It was mildly hilarious.
2) I was inexplicably laughing a lot throughout the day. I'm not insane. And my new friend Cristina and I agreed to get drinks after work.
3) After yet another attempt to bring my car home, after it worked earlier that day I couldn't get it to come home. I made it back pissed off, but my parents were actually light hearted about the whole thing. I drank a bloody mary and went to bed.
Friday: Valentines Day
1) I got a sexy haircut and on top of that my hairdresser kept telling me about how much pot he smoked while he was in Costa Rica.
2) My mom surprised me with my favorite beer (well top five) Old Rasputin. She also included a card. 'Dear Greg, you are a dick, but dicks need love too. I hope you find it.'
3) My and my parents got sushi. Me and my dad had to wait an hour for takeout and stand with a bunch of pissed off people waiting for a table on V-day.
Saturday:
1. I went out for lunch with the family. (I'm really making us sound like a bunch of fat shits)
2. I was super angry about being held up in traffic. I got to work and told one of my coworkers how pissed off I was and she found it hilarious.
3. Me and my friend from work went out for drinks. We shared crazy stories. She told me when she gets angry she'll throw a chair or two.
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