Day 2 30 Days of creativity and play and getting my ass kicked

Yesterday was a day of creativity and play. I went to the park and saw animals in the wild. I saw a whole pond filled with turtles and wanted to give the, all names. I saw a bunny and I picked five pretty flowers. I even did something I hadn't done in nearly 20 years I collected rocks!

If you're ever at a loss of what to do with idle time just go find a pretty rock. It's easier than you think. I remember thinking about how much I loved New York and it was odd because it couldn't be further from New York. But I realized how much it was all a state of mind for me. The lightness I feel when I'm in a city I love was, for the first time duplicated right in my own back yard. Not literally. But ya know.

I treated myself the whole day and that doesn't mean I jerked off. I mean I took a walk brought myself lunch than browsed my favorite record store. And did it all in a few hours. Just like when I meditate I couldn't believe how much experience was I'm such a small span of time.

So that's the play what about the vulnerability. I remember just thinking of Whitman being out in nature. And I remember a friend always asking me to read her Whitman like an 8 year old asking for a bedtime story and that was the first time I'd been able to laugh at my friend who I had grown apart from. That's why it's no healthy to try to pretend shit that hurt you didn't happen because you never know when you might look back and have a revelation. People grow apart that's just what happens and it's especially hard when you feel it happening, let them go gracefully but it doesn't hurt to leave something behind :)